Me

I feel empty.
I feel that my insides are on vacation and it's just a shell walking around.

"How are you today?"

I'm NOT good! My son is in a RTC (Residential Treatment Center), my heart is shattered, I can't grasp the meaning.

I don't want to always say "I'm good".

I want to say I'm hurting, I'm alone, I'm disconnected from myself. I'm disconnected from the world, my being. My body and mind are not in synch, my thoughts are scattered. My time is empty. I have space I don't want. I have time I don't need.

I want
quiet
peace
solace
space
to be left alone
to hide
to search my soul
to find myself

I need to reconnect to me
my world
my children

I've sold my soul.

I've given away private parts of me.

I have allowed others to take whatever they needed, never asking for anything in return.