Waiting

For almost ten years I have looked forward to and counted on only two things: snow and ski patrol. 

Unlike anything else in my current life like my husband, family, friends, waking up, sunrise or sunset, these were THE two things in my life that I KNEW for certain would happen. They were the two things I lived and breathed for year 'round.

Currently I do not belong to any ski patrol - so I don't give a shit about the snow.

So, the two things I had loved most in my currently fucked up life, the two things I knew would happen when winter rolled around, are gone.

That's okay though because I can continue to do what I do best - sleep my life away.