Restless

Slowly consuming me

I fight to remember

All the reasons

Why I should stay

I find none

Distancing myself

From people and things

That I can't hold onto

For more than a minute 

I can't breathe

Closing my eyes

My brain screams

For what I can't have

To hold me together

My heart stops

Listen closely

To what I can't say

Because you will

Always remember

The silence

Before I slip away

A last look around

The nothingness

I fell into

Without you

I tried not to

Love you and

I tried to

Let you go

I couldn't

Pushing you away

Brought you closer

To the edge

On the other side

Of my life

Reaching for you

Everything in me

Fell away

While the walls grew

Too tall to leap over

Hold out your

Hand to me

Together

We can jump

Into the abyss