Saturday my husband, my oldest son and I were cruising in my new Jeep with all the tops off. My husband was controlling the iPod and before he played a particular song he turned to my son, shook his hand and said "this is for you, it's your time to take up the gauntlet". It was Toby Keith's "American Soldier". I started to cry. I cried because of how proud I am of Matthew and I cried because I'll be letting my son go to begin his life on his terms.
I cried again last night, wrapped up in my husbands arms as I apologized to him for hurting him the way I did when I tried to o.d. in 2004.
I have cried more in the past month than I have in the last two years and it feels good.
I cried again last night, wrapped up in my husbands arms as I apologized to him for hurting him the way I did when I tried to o.d. in 2004.
I have cried more in the past month than I have in the last two years and it feels good.
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