For several weeks now I have been carrying around a bundle of darkness ~ and I don't know why.
I do know, however, that it is a deeply, volcanic, hissing ball of emotions that currently have me paralyzed because I am too afraid to confront them. I'm afraid because I have no idea the vast array of emotions that are lying just beneath the surface of me.
I know it's not healthy to walk around feeling this way ~ but I also know it's not healthy for me to even go there because I will most certainly be swept away by the lava.
Actually, that's not true. I do know why I am lugging this enormous weight around ~ I can't deal with the ultimate confrontation that will certainly come from me dropping it into the sea.
Sigh...
I do know, however, that it is a deeply, volcanic, hissing ball of emotions that currently have me paralyzed because I am too afraid to confront them. I'm afraid because I have no idea the vast array of emotions that are lying just beneath the surface of me.
I know it's not healthy to walk around feeling this way ~ but I also know it's not healthy for me to even go there because I will most certainly be swept away by the lava.
Actually, that's not true. I do know why I am lugging this enormous weight around ~ I can't deal with the ultimate confrontation that will certainly come from me dropping it into the sea.
Sigh...
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