Ball & Chain

"I was in a relationship I had no business being in."

That statement, while taken out of context, is still ricocheting inside my head like a wayward torpedo.

It was not spoken in anger or malice, or to maim or wound me. It was however probably the most honest thing Henry has said to me in the past 7+ years.

Henry said he had been in a place in his life when we met, where he should have been focusing on himself instead of a relationship and a marriage.

The sad thing is, I understand. I know that paralyzing feeling of emptiness of not knowing who I was, what my purpose in life was or why I even existed.

The question I have been dragging around like a ball and chain has finally been answered.

I feel nothing.